about me! wishlist! links! tagboard!Wed was the end of a really bad period for me. The past few weeks have been really tremendous and torrid and i'm just glad that,
those times are over.
So things can only get better (:
Alot of the things that have been bugging me, haven't exactly disappeared but at least, I konw how to deal with them now.
And you know, when you look at the situation/problem from another point of view, it might not look as bad as it had seemed at first, even though that doesn't remove its bad points, but at least, learn to appreciate that there's boons to it too.
hahahaha.
to sum it up,
I feel...
At peace.
With myself.
With the world.
(:
What more can I ask for?
It's been so long since I've got a chance to feel like that!
hahaahhaha.
San Siro.
AC Milan has been unbeaten in all matches played against English teams, until
AC Milan 0-2 Arsenal.
Brilliant match.
I watched it.
Historic victory.
I was,
overwhelmed.
Told all the doubters out there that Arsenal was gonna beat AC Milan.
They laughed.
Told me, wishful thinking I was
But it's logical.
No team has ever won 2 champions league titles in consecutive years.
Milan's off-form and aging.
Arsenal rises up to the occassion.
Remember Real Madrid, Juventus 2 years ago.
Then think about PSV Eindhoven just a year ago.
Note the difference.
Fabregas is love.
We're damn similar.
Yet damn different.
but he was the nobody who became somebody.
and strangely enough,
hahaha. he's my role model.
but yep.
ever since the first match I saw him in.
Champions league group stage against Rosenburg.
we won 5-1.
He called one of the goals. A brilliant effort it was.
I never forgot that goal and the celebration.
He was, 16.
I guess it's easy to relate to him cos of the age difference and I saw him grow up while I'm undergoing the same process too.
Thank you fabregas for being such an inspiration to me! =D
Alright.
Now that Arsenal has done their job.
It's time to do mine.
I need to mug.
I don't want to screw up CTs too badly.
Plus I need to catch up on alot of work.
Told myself that after hardcoring CCAS, esp Interact and soccer, for the 1st term, gonna focus on soccer season and my service centre in term 2.
After that, it's As.
Woots!
i'm not scared come on man.
I know I can play catch up anytime. (:
Luz de la estrella~ As bright as you are don't get burned by your lucky star`
at 10:41 p.m.
[Sunday, Mar. 02, 2008]
Could this be, but would it be if it shouldn't even have been.
Guess the reason why I went on hiatus?
Because my pictures are so old they don't even show so I get sad cos I can't see Fabregas (& Torres & the ugly turtle) anymore!
Wanna know the reason why I am blogging again?
Because Yunzhi started a blog last year and she said it's to keep her RJ friends (US!) updated about her life and stuff so I guess,
(and she sent me our sec 1 plt photo! hahaha which was really funny cos everyone looked different but are rather the same too!)
I should do the same!
Especially since I don't see so many of my good friends anymore.
Hahahahha.
SO WHAT"S UP?
I think i've became stupid-er!
and more independent!
and more responsible!
and less emotional!
and I erm
realize how important friends are.
and how much I miss
certain people.
Siti and I were being nostalgic about plt mates on Fri night.
I want a mugging partner because I won't mug when I'm alone and
I.
Can't.
Study.
At.
Home.
So I need to go out to mug, and I need someone to be there with me, cos the last time i tried to mug in the school canteen alone,
I read my econs notes for ten minutes.
I slept for one and a half hours.
I wokeup.
and went home.
Oh.
What else about my life?
I've no life ):
And I still love (watching) soccer.
Soccer (playing it)
makes me depressed sometimes.
You don't need the details.
Studies
don't even talk about it.
I won't be able to catch up
even if I managed to get on a plane right now.
Relationships
hmmm.
Hahahahha.
I dont know what to say la
maybe this explains everything
recently,
i've always come up short.
like with my classmates esp.
i just dont know what to say to them.
feel very awkward,
abit like i'm trying too hard
very self-conscious and stuff
but it doesn't get to me
(so much)
like it would have (in the past)
cos
haha like i say so many times,
i know i'm not really alone.
cos my close friends
are still around.
=D
win some, lose some.
(if you get what i mean)
BENDTER IS LOVE.
HE SAVED THE DAY.
damn random but,
that 93rd min goal
could just turn out to define the rest of arsenal's season,
more psychologically then anything else.
Maybe,
i need an emotional and psychological boost too.
like firstly,
get you out of my mind
next,
stop pretending.
maybe it'll kickstart my j2 year and I'll be happier and not always floaty and distracted because I'm thinking about everything.
):
I'm scared of being alone.
and I'm scared of becoming increasingly alone.
and I'm scared of forgetting how to talk to people one day when I wake up.
is this entry really random?
well well well
perhaps it's only accurate in showing the confused state of mind.
I went for GP CT.
with 2 hours of sleep.
and finished,
my gp essay and comprehension
for the first time ever.
anyway,
I'll do anything.
and everything.
to keep myself from getting distracted by _______
I'll work hard.
I'll study.
I'll concentrate on what's important.
aiyah.
actually
I just want to relax.
like really really.
=D
okay.
i dont think i'll blog again soon.
i discovered another reason why i stopped blogging.
people who aren't supposed to read my blog read it.
Lol.
so now we can play fill-in-the-blanks. :D
alrighty.
WHO WANTS TO MUG DURING MARCH HOLS BECAUSE THEY CAN'T CONCENTRATE AT HOME, TELL ME (:
Luz de la estrella~ As bright as you are don't get burned by your lucky star`
at 8:49 p.m.
[Thursday, Feb. 07, 2008]
lose-lose situations
Happy Chinese New Year!
hahahahahah.
"...
i've liked you for more than a year,
i still haven't forgotten the first time we met.
i still haven't forgotten the first conversation we had.
cos ever since then, i've been so into you.
i still am."
or
"...
i used to like you,
i told you that i liked you.
i got over you.
yet i didn't realize,
you were in the midst of getting attached all this while.
it's awkward."
Pick these out from somewhere.
and i wondered,
which situation would you rather be in?
i mean like,
would you ever tell a guy you like him if you knew he liked another girl?
dont people confess only when they're sure they have a chance?
and,
do you believe in love at first sight?
another case of unrequited love and longing?
just wondering.
been talking to my peeps.
it's funny how these things work.
can't quite comprehend how they function
but what i've found out so far is,
people can't really control it.
at least,
that's what they say.
know what i think?
don't think about it! =D
Luz de la estrella~ As bright as you are don't get burned by your lucky star`
at 12:35 a.m.
[Thursday, Jan. 24, 2008]
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Start now.
Luz de la estrella~ As bright as you are don't get burned by your lucky star`
at 10:25 p.m.